Acquiesce….

It is not the time and it never will be the time that holds its weight of all acquiesces that lie in the womb of my soul…. It is and will always be the undoubted ‘deities’ that which assure its authority over every situation and reaction that are played as an obligation to the hierarchy that I belong to….

With more doubts than regrets (often) time clasps and flows with a gentle run of its own prolonged race with the ‘deities’, although not to mention that its not impossible to run against the ‘given’ prolonged race but it’s the acquiesces that give a little doubt and the horror of knowing the ‘told’ purposes that lie evident within the sanctum of my soul….

Waiting to be reached and touched with the wisdom that time has offered, my acquiesce still lie as an untouched virgin…. And I guess it will always remain…. Time offers me (us) the privilege to speculate everything that it offers and in the end it plays the trick of a notorious and a nasty wolf to take away all the offerings in the form of speculation that I (we) make like (a) fool(s)….

It’s more accepted that said when its time to play the acceptance of the role of a ‘deity’…. The horror and the anger lie evident whenever the doubts of my acquiescent lay helpless and unanswered….!!!!! The duties of every thing that has appeared as an obligation with the ‘deity’ has to be justified for a quiet and a peaceful sleep every night…. But, it looks more like the purpose of the ‘deity’ performed that is to be the center of attention through my anger….

It’s hard and in fact very hard to keep pace with the ‘deity’ and the time…. Therefore I wish that my sacred acquiescent lie as an untouched virgin …. A further speculation leads to no-w-here…. Therefore I just have learnt to love the way it gently lies untouched within the womb of my soul….

Its all because of you my 'Deity' called the man....

I was brought in like there was nothing better than a life to live, and here I am to see more than what I call the dreadfully accepted ugliness which life offers at its finger tips to me, like there is nothing more to honor than the things that come my way.... Now I see more than I ever saw before or rather I ever wished to see....

I would never ever point my finger at YOU and say that this was all not fair in the game, but I prefer taking the backseat in your priority list…. It has come to point where I am compelled to say and even think that I have absolutely no regrets, for you alone hold all the responsibilities for helping me raise my head with the dignity of what I am and at the same time realize that its you and you alone who could make me raise my head with dignity….

You, as I speak today with the honor of knowing myself the way you exactly wanted me to see myself…. Am in a void of surrender…. The thing that existed to me in the past was “I” as I see myself now is just in the eyes of you…. It’s not at all a thing to be proud about when I see what I see…. I have begun to realize that it’s not I but its all because of you, my deity called the man….!!